She showed up while I was watching Final Destination- Legacy with Matt and the kids. That movie was grusome and brutal AF and made me feel all the ickies! Ha! Hence, how she was able to make her entrance. Your demons love drudging through your ickies and sloshing them about making messes! Buggers! Haha! Anyhow... She told me that she & I made an agreement a long time ago that she would come help me with anger and fear in a very specific manner.
Watching that particular movie brought out for me the reasons why I stopped watching horror flicks in high school around age 16. That was the first time I started to tap into my psychic abilities and my unbeknownst to me, at the time, inspiration was from some of the horror movies I loved watching (and being an avid Stephen King novel reader). It was all stemming from a very dark and negative place, so it was scary and I worked hard to suppress it, but it kept coming up and was consistently dark and scary for me. This eventually led me to feeling suicidal by senior year, which turned out to simply be me needing to transition out of who I was at that point to become who I wanted to be. Dark night of soul things. I superconsciously had to choose from 3 options, die young in my hometown by some circumstance, kill myself via suicide before 18 or get the fuck out of my hometown. All things aligned perfectly for me to leave my hometown, so I did exactly that! At this point the rest of that is history.
So back to this demon, Dintonishno (her name in my light language- still learning about the light language- seems to be crazy ass shit), told me she came to show me what I requested to learn before incarnating in this life and she was using the contrast opposites to courage and power to teach me, which for me was fear and anger. She said courage and power are what I need to embrace in order for me to help others differentiate between right vs wrong regarding the idea of truth. And that the idea of truth is not absolute. There's a semantics component to it. One of the tasks for me is to look into the real meaning (connotatively and denotatively) of the actual word 'truth.' I know that it is only an 'absolute' concept if right or wrong is assigned.
This realization also debunks my personal belief (which is a common one amongst spiritual types) that each individual person has their own unique truth. I do not have a complete understanding yet as to why that is not the case, but I will. With a viewpoint of only positive or negative, all connotations of the idea of 'truth' are completely debunked. You guys, I have no idea what the fuck this all means for me or how in the hell I'm supposed to navigate it, but I thought it would be fun to document it and see if anything comes of this! Haha!
Lately, I have been feeling like it's time for me to make myself visible and to simply stop over-explain myself. I can share my story, but only from a standpoint of zero responsibility for others and zero expectations from others surrounding my shares. All of this is very unconventional and requires a SHIT TON of courage and use of my personal power... Makes sense! Kinda! LMFAO!
PS... This shit is SO the quintessential shenanigans of spirit! In conjunction with Source, of course!
Spirit: "Teach people about truth."
Me: "How dafuq, motherfucker? That is so abstract and broad!"
Spirit: "Yes! Now go do it"
Me: "Fine." 😒
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