Divine support and the synchronicity that leads to Earthly support

Lately I have been on this quest for balance.  We all need more balance, no matter who you are or what your circumstances!  Something in your life could use a tip in one direction or another.  Obviously no one and nothing is perfect, but some people need balance more than others.  I had started to notice recently that my head was just too far in the clouds!  Like in fucking outer space exploring galaxies and parallel universes and other dimensions!  Haha!  My Earthly duties were falling short and I was too far into the rabbit hole I always speak of and named this blog after!  I like, totally dig the proverbial rabbit hole (no pun intended) and I like the places it has taken me, but I need to be able to exit and pick back up on Earth at will as I continue my exploration of it.  It’s not something to become lost in, but that’s easy to do and when you become lost, finding your way out can be challenging, to say the least.  I’m still working on all of that.  But thankfully things are going well!  There was turmoil in 95% of my life relationships and it has now been resolved due to the things I figured out in ALL of my moments of never ending self-discovery. Some of the turmoil caused actual divides felt on both sides, while other situations with a select few (selected by me subconsciously, I suppose) were devised completely in my mind and those people were clueless there was even an issue (thank the heavens- if you believe in them- for those innocent souls)!  All is now on the mend and my mental state is also on the mend.

Mental states are interesting.  Where do I begin with this one?  There’s so much and so many avenues to be traveled on this topic!  Here is my backstory, briefly, for those who aren’t aware.  I was diagnosed as bipolar many moons ago (maybe like 150 moons).  I lived my life in shades of gray on psychiatric medication for the better part of a decade and a half.  That included what are now gray memories of getting married to the man of my dreams (whom I adore beyond words and is still to this day the most incredible person I know),  the birth of both of my incredibly gifted and sweet children and many other really amazing life events and experiences.  That was sad, but is now in the past as I live my life in the most vivid of technicolor that I feel I’ve ever seen in this lifetime or any other.  While this is an amazing thing, the spiritual/cosmic versus the scientific/Earthly components were very confusing for me for quite some time.  Now as most of us know, we all create our own realities and spirituality and science have both proven that, obviously only the later of those two ideas is tangible, but nonetheless, it’s been proven many times over.  With that being said I will say, some believe that mental illness and issues of mental states are all created within our inner worlds and therefore brought to fruition in our outer worlds.  I agree.  But that’s such a powerful process that science is a massive component.  

Do I have the will to erase my limiting beliefs completely and stop all of the madness?  Sure!  That’s totally possible!  But at what cost?  If I seek enlightenment, if you will, and look to be like the Great Buddha, where does that leave those on Earth I agreed to come help?  What’s my quest here if not to be amongst the Earthlings and understand this whole way of being and embody it for the betterment of self and those around me?  How the FUCK do you balance seeking enlightenment and helping the fucked up shit that goes on in this place on the fucking daily?  HOW!?  Well for starters, let me stop myself there.  That’s the wrong use of the question “how?”  Really just a completely improper use of that word.  How and the knowing of it isn’t my business!  Neither is who? When? What? Where? And good Lord, I REALLY need to eliminate “why?” from a lot of places in my mind and life!  They all have appropriate uses, of course, but generally the proper uses pertain to critical thinking as opposed to spiritual and heart space ways of being.  But it all has to work together and that’s where balance comes into play.  

So, in my critical thinking, where I am attempting to meld the heart space and the brain space together to work cooperatively as a multi-compartmental cohesive unit, I ask… How do I balance the spiritual and the scientific to work to my advantage for the sake of sanity and lightwork?  That is a COMPLETELY valid question!  That shit is tricky as fuck, huh? I obviously don’t have the answer to this question for myself yet and that’s fine.  But I have noticed a trend that is really cool and interesting.  

Sometimes I am stubborn as fuck and I get set in my ways and don’t deter from my shenanigans to look around me and see what’s actually happening in my reality.  So during those moments, my divine guidance often does things to grab my attention!  EVERYONE’S divine guidance does this to them, but it’s all a matter of how aware they are that something beyond this Earthly world is giving them a sign!  I’m hyper aware at times and even things that seem as though they may have just happened by chance come about, I’m like, “ok guys!  I hear you loud and clear!” And I don’t question it!  I used to, but then I decided, who cares if it’s nothing and I lightened my heart about it all.  That decision definitely made “signs” easier to pick out!  Example!  One time I went to send a completely inappropriate text to a girl friend because I really thought it was funny at the time and a pillow that was above my head legit fell onto my damn face as I started to type!  Hahahaha!  Not a coinky dink, guys!  But that’s the way I have manifested things for myself in my reality in the form of signs and I learned some time ago to not question it.

There are ways your divine guidance gets your attention, less ‘by chance’!  Have you ever randomly out of nowhere thought about someone you really just felt compelled to get in touch with or have you ever felt the need to reach out and do something nice for someone you haven’t talked to in some time?  Those are subconscious thoughts.  And your divine guidance works via your subconscious.  Sometimes you need to get in touch with someone because they need some sort of message from you from the divine and the divine is using you as a channel to send it!  Other times it is because you yourself are in need of a message or guidance and that particular person you thought of was the person your guidance chose to relay your divine message!  Either way!  Always listen to that!  The divine uses all sorts of things around us, as well as our minds to bring us the Earthly guidance that sometimes we are needed to provide, but is also sometimes needed to be provided to us!  Trust yourself and just go with whatever feels right and makes your heart smile!  We all deserve the heart smiles!