Have you ever role played with yourself? It sounds super weird, right? But let's be honest, we ALL talk to ourselves out loud here and there. This would just be considered a 'healthy' way to answer yourself and not be viewed as a 'crazy person'! Although, who fucking cares who thinks you're crazy? Am I right or am I right!?
I hadn't ever role played with myself until I started going to school to be a certified clinical hypnotherapist, which is what I am embarking upon currently! I am dealing with SO many levels of 'WHOA' right now in this process and other areas of my healing and self-betterment journey that are happening simultaneously, that my brain sometimes just hurts and feels like scrambled eggs! A bestie of mine once told me that you are your own first client and I sort of had an idea of what she meant but then it shifted! My initial thought was, oh yeah you have to heal first in order to help others. That one was partly true. You do not have to be completely HEALED to help others start their healing journeys, but you should, at the very least, be well underway embarking upon your own healing journey! I'm qualified AF at this point! Haha! My healing is headed in a forward motion with great momentum! I've come a very long way, but I still have a LONG way to go! What my friend actually meant by being your own first client is that you live the example that you are choosing to teach. I could not agree more!
Now back to the weird shit about me talking to myself! I have started to watch my thoughts very carefully. And I am in constant observation right now with my interactions with others. Part of my hypnotherapy training is learning to actively listen and engage to build rapport. But I decided that practicing on myself first was a grand idea! I'd now like to share a short dialog with me as my first hypnotherapy and life coaching client and me as the hypnotherapist/life coach! This is definitely one of the less complicated thought patterns bouncing around in my head!
Me- Client: I just feel like I am so often pressed for time. I have very little time at home to complete tasks and I am always late!
Me- Hypnotherapist: What are your general thoughts on the idea of time?
Me-C: Well, I know it's relative and that I can create time where I need it. I am aware that I restrict myself with regards to time.
Me-H: Why do you think you restrict yourself when you're aware that you can create time?
Me-C: Well I feel very heavy anytime I have a time commitment where others are relying on me.
Me- H: Tell me more about how you feel about others with regards to time.
Me-C: Well if I'm late or too slow others will be upset or think I'm rude.
Me-H: As I am sure you're aware, your last statement is a false truth, I've created an affirmation for you that I will present as a hypnotic suggestion. 'I am confident in myself in all scenarios and my timing is ALWAYS just right.'
Essentially I determined that my time management and punctuality issues stem from me putting SO much weight on others points of view that I self-sabotage myself when it comes to time and punctuality. There is some part of me that feels the need to 'rage against the machine', so to speak, when it comes to others' opinions in general. So much so that I am willing to subconsciously put myself in shit situations JUST so I can blame others, IN MY OWN FUCKING MIND, for my mess up and not hold myself accountable. That's bull shit, Sharett!! I know, Sharett!!!
I don't typically break down my thought processes this deeply anymore because when I choose to let go of a behavior, I uproot it and the past is no longer relevant so I let it all just leave me and transmute the energy. That has been a progressive thing that I am very proud to still be progressing beautifully with!
This is my first share on any insight about being in school right now. I'm a month into the year long program and while the adjustment and transition period has proven to be FILLED with valuable lessons for a whole slew of reasons, I could not be more excited to be learning clinical professional hypnotherapy as a beautiful stepping stone in my life. More on the reason I view it as a stepping stone and NOT a concrete career coming your way soon! Promise!! Light and love to you all, my darlings!
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